saturdays

i don't really post much..especially this week.. but that is fine. Anyways. Every saturday, it seems like i work either 12-9 or 2-11..it wastes me whole day. =[ and every saturday is amazing weather. poop. I went on a run this morning. it felt good. I've realized, all along, i've been told running is mental, not all physical..and i never believed them.. but it is true, if your mind isn't tired, then your body won't be. it is just how it turns out. I think I'm going to start running a lot more. =]

I think tomorrow I am going to do something out of the norm. =]

I like change.

texas

its been a couple interesting days here..first night, we got here at 11, and then rushed to the hospital because of my brother..spent the night til 3 in the morning in the e.r. waiting to see whats happening..but thats all taken care of. =]
then the next day, we went shopping around here. Met some people. Then the second day, we spent the day on a ranch. We rode horses. mine was crazy! he wanted to do his own path..interesting..then we eventually got back..and the lady gave me some shorts to use to go swimming in..it was nice of her..we swam..then i fell asleep in the pool area and got burned. i woke up and went inside to play pool with my brothers. that was good. then we had dinner and went on a hay ride. it was pretty fun actually. i got to know this girl pretty well. she had a cute dog named bella. THe puppy was 9 weeks old. then we went back and had smores and such. they told us scary ghost stories. Then today we went to the caverns while my dad and stepmom went to the hospital or doctors because she had issues..then we went to the alamo..not nice people! ha. but eventually made our way back..then went to get dinner at 9..and it took a while to find this one sandwich place..we have cheese cake..but we are all full. its been a good day.
coming home tomorrow..kind of excited, but could be cool to stay longer. im ready to come home though.

haven't posted in a while, so i thought it would be a good time to.

well

yes it was all said and done..and it opened up doors for me..but i still don't know what to say..i say im over it and that it never mattered..but i honestly dont know how i feel..hm.

cartilage

so im thinking of getting my cartilage pierced tomorrow? idk yet..probably..maybe..but im scared it will hurt..its alright if it does i just want to do it..i want to get my septum pierced but i cant just go out and do it yet.my dad wants me to take small steps..
anyways..this past week..has been crazy! softball and school has taken my life...HA. =] i have all A's and B's except for one lousy class.chemistry..i told my chem teacher id try harder though. so i am now.

last night was scary but fun with guadalupe..scaring yourself is stupid but oh welll

lately..life has been flying by..i look at my grades and they are A's and B's with the exception of chem..it felt like yesterday my grades were so bad..what happened? anyways..work..its crazy..why do we need to work? ha. stupid question. today work went by fast since some managers werent there..i should probably be studying for tomorrows test..but ill pass it..lol. im so tired..and i just looked at the time..crazy! im ready for bed...but i have alot to do..so lately, ive been feeling better then i had been..its nice..
this morning..lizzy parked in front of me..and i was still in my car listening to music..and i was waiting for lizzy to get out..but she never did until i did...hmmm? i was hoping she'd get out first..hey lizzy guess what, since we have a game tomorrow, i can wear my jersey =] goodnight.

hm

lately..ive been in pretty weird moods..tonight was tough..but its better..i miss people..i really wanna talk to my friends who i havent talked to in a while..i miss them..ive been making so many decisions lately, and idk where im going with them..are they helping me out? or are they just there to make life more difficult? idk..i have alot on my mind..too much to deal with..

interesting...

a whole week off..and nothing to do..hm...what should i do? is the question im left with..well ill find things between work and such..i havent blogged in a while..theres so much in my mind..but i cant quite put it into words..hm..

turf..

hm..yesterday...was a bad game but i think im over it..i had trouble falling asleep because it was on my mind, but now i feel better..yes, the other team were poor sports..especially the girl at the end..but thats fine..i still feel horrible about half time..but thats alright..soccer is over...kinda a bummer..=[ but now its softball if i decide to go out tomorrow..hm? what should i do? anyways..school is bleh..i still have to do a project tonight..ill be going to see what softball tryouts are like today with makenzie..im going to school soon..so that will be good.

blog moment

why does everyone care so much about colleges..its not about the colleges we go to, or the money we make, or even the cars we drive..but honestly..that shouldnt be all people care about..why care care about what kind of college you go to? a degree is a degree...you pay more for one college, and less for another..is it worth it to day, "i went to harvard" or "i went to stanford" knowing you can go to a different college and get the same exact degree..why do people care so much about who has better stuff? in the end it should coem down to family and friends..right? idk..im just kinda tired of all this college talk..its crap. the end.

gah

every night for the past week ive been having bad dreams..someone i love is always involved..its weird..i wake up in fear but then realize its not true..what is this? idk..i want them to stop..its not healthy..it happens when i go to bed earlier than 11..coincadental? however you spell that word..well today will be interesting for many reasons..hopefully i get my sadies tickets today at lunch? i gotta go get the money..crap! =] im kinda tired of work..everytime i go in..i feel like its a punishment..when its not.i just need more to look forward to..i have a hard time at practice wanting to tell her to to leave us alone..i mean the result in it yesterday was doing 40 pushups..doesnt seem hard..but after doing planks, you cant lift anything..i did them..but whatever..hm i might go get riley then get starbucks? idk..i told him id pick him up before school..

obvious..

i didnt think that it was so obvious..well it wasnt to me..until they pointed it out and told me to look at all sides..i feel stupid..ha.
anyways..today was interesting..idk still if im going to sadies or not..and i had work today..which it was real good.really chill..my manager kinda made me mad though at one point, and so i was glaring at him and he was just laughing cuz he knows he has the power to do what he wants..oh well..its over..=] so i have no idea what my plans are tonight..i was going to see a movie but decided not to..i wanna chill but dont know what to do..i had an idea of something..but i havent called them yet..its been kinda a long day..dead homework when i first woke up..read..then me and david went to sen dai..got a curry bowl and shared it..then went to work..my day went by fast but seemed long..i had fun tho..now im bored but its fine..peace.

well

I havent been on here in a while...really busy lately..i fell asleep last night after work doing my essays and homework..didnt finish. im just real tired from work and soccer lately.Im full of decions lately..am i going to sign up for mexico? Idk..i have til tomorrow to decide.
So today in fifth period, i came across this question...Is religion propaganda? We were talking about propaganda..and forms of it..then the question came up in my head because propaganda is about pushing people to go one way or another..isnt that religion? my history teacher told me some long lecture though about how it is but isnt..i blanked out after a while..my bad!

Im kinda missing random people lately that i havent been in contact with for a while..its weird..they will come to mind and i will think about what they have been up to and if i still matter to them or what not???

today my agenda:
practice
work
essays
read book for 5th period
sleep


im nervous about work today..i dont wanna go..it wont be good.