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every night for the past week ive been having bad dreams..someone i love is always involved..its weird..i wake up in fear but then realize its not true..what is this? idk..i want them to stop..its not healthy..it happens when i go to bed earlier than 11..coincadental? however you spell that word..well today will be interesting for many reasons..hopefully i get my sadies tickets today at lunch? i gotta go get the money..crap! =] im kinda tired of work..everytime i go in..i feel like its a punishment..when its not.i just need more to look forward to..i have a hard time at practice wanting to tell her to to leave us alone..i mean the result in it yesterday was doing 40 pushups..doesnt seem hard..but after doing planks, you cant lift anything..i did them..but whatever..hm i might go get riley then get starbucks? idk..i told him id pick him up before school..

obvious..

i didnt think that it was so obvious..well it wasnt to me..until they pointed it out and told me to look at all sides..i feel stupid..ha.
anyways..today was interesting..idk still if im going to sadies or not..and i had work today..which it was real good.really chill..my manager kinda made me mad though at one point, and so i was glaring at him and he was just laughing cuz he knows he has the power to do what he wants..oh well..its over..=] so i have no idea what my plans are tonight..i was going to see a movie but decided not to..i wanna chill but dont know what to do..i had an idea of something..but i havent called them yet..its been kinda a long day..dead homework when i first woke up..read..then me and david went to sen dai..got a curry bowl and shared it..then went to work..my day went by fast but seemed long..i had fun tho..now im bored but its fine..peace.

well

I havent been on here in a while...really busy lately..i fell asleep last night after work doing my essays and homework..didnt finish. im just real tired from work and soccer lately.Im full of decions lately..am i going to sign up for mexico? Idk..i have til tomorrow to decide.
So today in fifth period, i came across this question...Is religion propaganda? We were talking about propaganda..and forms of it..then the question came up in my head because propaganda is about pushing people to go one way or another..isnt that religion? my history teacher told me some long lecture though about how it is but isnt..i blanked out after a while..my bad!

Im kinda missing random people lately that i havent been in contact with for a while..its weird..they will come to mind and i will think about what they have been up to and if i still matter to them or what not???

today my agenda:
practice
work
essays
read book for 5th period
sleep


im nervous about work today..i dont wanna go..it wont be good.