I woke up at 8:30, but that was the time I was supposed to show up at school. So I got to registration late..One thing hit me though..all the people i was surrounded by. My normal group of friends, we all came back from doing different things...As we go around telling different stories making us laugh, I am realizing I don't know them anymore. I've really seperated myself, not necessarily good, more bad. I don't know why I'm soo seperate now. I feel like everyone is so fake, and not real. I don't know anyone since I was gone the whole summer.My school picture, its such a fake smile. I was in a bad mood this morning, that when it was time for the picture, I wanted to leave.
Now that im back home, I feel much stronger. I feel like going through the day is easier now, but lonely. I want to be surrounded by what I was for the past two weeks. Its a struggle im facing. I miss everybody i met. I miss having someone to talk to. I know I need to stop relying on humans as much. I am excited for the school year to begin because it shows me how strong I can be and am. There is not much left to say..I am leaving for Tahoe tomorrow morning, so I need to pack everything in my car..Its hard since i worked a full day shift yesterday, and I have another one coming 3:00. I am SO tired and i haven't much sleep. I feel like i just ramble in blogs.
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oh.my.goodness. i know how you feel. I'm so incredibly distant from my friends that it scares me. I hear everything second hand; I don't know whats going on in their lives; I don't see them; I don't know them. It's weird. It's hard. I have no advice because I'm struggling with it too, but have comfort that we're going through the same thing.
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