aloevera.

Its amazing to have when being sunburned! suntan lotion. wear it!
so that was not the point of this blog! the point was to say what was on my mind.
I am enjoying getting to know more people that are opening up to me.i feel im afraid to open up to some people though, since i can't give what i feel i should to the friendship. i remember last summer..i had a hard time opening up..i didnt want to. i was closed off.i felt like the closest people had betrayed me. it sucked. i remember coming home from camp last summer..and i had opened up so much there..and how it helped me to open up to others around me..but i remember the start of this summer..i was so closed off again..not wanting to open up..i felt betrayed once more..i felt like i lost all my friends..and i made fake friends..but going to camp this summer helped me to open up! i really learned to trust not only me or others, but god. i feel like i really tried trusting people this summer..some of who i had just met. im really glad i can open up now!

i really feel like i've been such a bad friend to some people..people who i dont talk to daily to make sure they are alright..i feel like i suck at friendships..and there is one friendship that comes to mind that i know i havent been such a great friend in..and i wish i could just show them that i love them to death..but its hard when they dont help out by putting forth also..its just life. =]
well im out. goodnight!