where does the good go?

its so weird..hearing about a suicidle death..especially when it could be one of your classmates. we dont expect it..just how people were reacting today..it took me by surprise..why did the school offer these special counselors right away for this guy..but when it came to denise..they didnt offer it til a couple days after it went out around school.that just got to me today..i didnt understand..it sucks what happens..but really..where does the good go in all of this?
anyways..i really feel like some friendships are deteriating..is that how you spell it? idk..but..i need these friendships..not want, but need. i miss people.i miss having one on ones..i really enjoy the times i do get with them..things i do for them arent because i HAVE to but because I WANT to.i really miss people..far ppl..people who i dont see daily..so i have no idea whats going on..
one song has been stuck in my head all day..its 'hold on.'
here are some lyrics:

This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You don't have to go
You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care
You're mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more




that song gets to me..i remember the first time i heard it, the person told me, "this is not a funny song. listen to it." and that really opened my eyes.
i think explaining what twloha to brittany last night was really cool. she didnt seem too interested, but it was a chance to spread it. thats it for tonight. i have to go to bed..im waking up at like 5 tomorrow..ill post more probably this weekend..i just dont have time..