wow.

so..i deleted the silly blogs that were here..i wanted to start fresh..i just came back from camp. it felt..so..surreal.ive learned alot from these past two weeks. I felt like I went to camp with alot on my plate, but came back restored. Hebrews 11:1 "Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." It seems like such an easy verse to comprehend. I took it as an easy verse my whole life until these past two weeks. I took it to heart and prayed that as a prayer just about everyday. Having alone time helped me so much to realize where I've been and where I want to be. If i could fit the last two weeks into one word, it'd be, struggling. I know most people would say changing or something happy and cheery. I feel in my heart though, that the last two weeks was a struggle. Finding out about myself, about others, about God. It def. changed me though. I didn't think coming to camp was the right thing at first, I tried talking myself out of it. However, God had a purpose for me going. I think the purpose of that was to show me hope. Camp is sooo hard to express in words. It changed me. I know that facing these things was the best choice of my whole summer. I feel like God really wanted me to open up which was not something I totally felt comfortable with. It was hard. Trusting..what a comcept to learn. Something I have also learned is, I love myself. I put myself down alot which makes me negative. I was happy that Indigo pointed out how I say negative things, because she helped me to say I love myself. I will have more to say as time progresses, but I am just glad I am on the right path.