realizations

Ive come to many realizations..first one, i dont ever have time to blog! ha.
2nd..i am pretty emotional at times and that explains a lot.
today..i dont even know..i just blew up at everyone who crossed my path, which i apologize about. Only one person really understood me and why I did. I just get screwed over lately at work, and I finally stood up to everyone who did. I feel bad about taking it out on some people but I mean..i was upset. It was rude but deserved. Idk.
I realized that I really admire the way they gave me a chance. Didn't blow me off and say, "oh your just a kid". Most people do now. I look up to them because of that. because they try to understand me. They don't use me for anything, and I dont use them at all. We share things equally. I was wondering if I should be communicating still with them, despite others, but its worth it. We get along no matter what. If im wrong, they point it out nicely, if im right, they apologize.
Anyways..those are currently the two thoughts in my head. goodnight.